Well, today we have the day off to rest. We got back last night from an awesome weekend serving with Outback America. It was held at Grands Plantation and about 250 college students attended. We arrived Thursday afternoon to help set up, and we had a really sweet evening in the chapel sharing about Jesus and singing songs to Him. The weather was really bad that night, so instead of sleeping in tents, we all slept in the big barn-like thing. I think I got maybe a few hours of sleep. The wind was intense and the obnoxious noise it made while hitting the barn door kept us awake. The lights were turned off around 10:15, and around 1 am, the weather was getting extremely bad. There were all kinds of crazy noises and I looked out the big barn door that was open and I saw a big white thing fly across the sky. Then the other huge, wooden door on the other side of the barn flew open and slammed shut again. Someone ran in, flipped on the lights and told us that the prayer tent flew away and that we needed to start praying. So we all got in the middle of the room and started praying.
The next morning we got straight to work. The place was flooded. It looked rather silly seeing vacuums in a big, grassy field, but we had to do our best to suck up all of the water. We used dirt and hay to try to fill in the wet areas so that we could set up over 100 tents. I don't think I sat down all day. On Saturday I led a low ropes course with one of my friends, and it was such a privilege to be a part of what the Lord is doing in the lives of those college girls. I felt so unqualified to do what I did. We had a quick run down of everything, but that was about it. I really began to experience the reality of the Holy Spirit living in me. The old me would be so incredibly nervous and anxious about leading something that I had no experience doing. And I would usually want to rehearse everything I had heard and remember everything single detail. But the "new" me was not nervous at all and was at complete peace. Both Prissy and I both forgot everything Maury had said, which means the Spirit would have to speak through us! Every time we tried to remember things and speak from our flesh, we weren't able to. I experienced freedom from the fear of man and freedom from myself. It was not me, but Christ inside of me!
The whole weekend was amazing. The Lord showed up and so many students experienced Christ and freedom. God is so good. I feel so humbled and blessed to be able to serve the Lord and to see the work He is doing and the lives He is saving. I am glad to be home though!
Jesus is blowing me away with His love for me. I AM HIS GIRL! I belong to Him!! He is the best Lover any girl could ever ask for. He is the perfect Husband. He is the best Romancer. He is enthralled with my beauty. His love is becoming so real. He is the best Pursuer. He is captivating my heart. I have had some wonderful days in the vineyard just basking in His love. It makes me so giddy! I find myself getting very passionate when I talk about the Lord's love and what He has done for me, and the way He has redeemed me. So many things are coming alive. I have read Song of Solomon several times, but it blows me away reading it now. The Lord is the most perfect designer and creator! Lately, I have been so amazed at the symbolism of marriage. EVERYTHING is about Jesus! Every single thing. I have heard so much about marriage and the "two becoming one" and how it is all spiritual, but I am actually getting it! Oh, the Lord is so beautiful. Marriage is such a cool picture of Christ and the Church. Goodness, He is really ministering to me in some deep places, healing and restoring. There are some things I feel like He has placed on my heart, and I am just praying to see what comes from all of it.
God is resurrection and life. He is love. He is grace. He is so many things. It hit me the other morning as I was reading in one of our books, even though I have heard it countless times. Jesus didn't say He was coming to resurrect lives, He said He IS resurrection. It is not that He is a good example or even the best example of love, grace, forgiveness, etc. He IS all of those things!! I am a fool to think that I can love or forgive or do anything without Him. Y'all, without Him I have not love. There is no way that I can love my family, my friends, or my future husband without Christ. Absolutely NO way. I can strive to do all things good, but without Christ, I have nothing. Oh I praise Him for that revelation. I need Him every second. I have to call on Him constantly.
One thing that is kind of crazy to me is that I have really not thought about what I will be doing after LEGACY. Well, I guess I have thought about it, but not often at all. It has not been consuming my thoughts one bit. The other day in the vineyard I did start thinking about it a little more than I have been. I found myself getting a little worried at one point. After talking with a brother about how the Lord has been so faithful, I was quickly reminded that it is ridiculous for me to worry. There is no point. He has been so good and faithful in the past, so why wouldn't He continue to be?! The God of the universe that has had a perfectly put-together plan from the very beginning of time has my life in His hands. I am crazy for worrying about my future. He is already leading and guiding me, so all I have to do is continue to obey.
Wow, I know I could keep going, but I need to go do some other things. I just wanted to share a few things that the Lord is doing in me. I know there is so much more, though. In closing, I just feel so blessed. So incredibly blessed.
